for what and WiLL

All of this likeness to appear in one mess;
in such a convoluted mess that the undress became a dressing to the wound.

I cannot or will not, can't see or be that hard, geometric wall,
giant;
TALL.
 that with such mess and such is this,
to find close in such and further to that which, thus……
and this
just
IS
then.

I was what I would will then --
and when I'd will, I'd forget that remember-
IN'.

Couldn't sleep without a twitch;
Couldn't control that weep,
and
what and oh
which….
will  C R E E P
(the kind of two they never expected you to)
….and be
for me and you
…(that which/what will "be")….
and forever
for that which wills what we cannot
S E E , (.)